What Should I Know?

I’ll answer first:
๐’๐จ๐ฆ๐ž๐ญ๐ก๐ข๐ง๐  ๐ˆ ๐ฐ๐ข๐ฌ๐ก ๐ฆ๐จ๐ซ๐ž ๐ฐ๐จ๐ฆ๐ž๐ง ๐ค๐ง๐ž๐ฐ ๐š๐›๐จ๐ฎ๐ญ ๐ก๐จ๐ฐ ๐ˆ ๐ฅ๐จ๐ฏ๐ž:
When I canโ€™t give a detailed emotional response right away, itโ€™s not because Iโ€™m hiding somethingโ€”Itโ€™s because it takes time for me to feel my thoughts through enough to understand what they are. After that, it takes more time to think of the right words to get this complex soup of thoughts and emotions in my head out to a human language that I can then give someone else clearly enough so they understand my thoughts accurate.

The women whoโ€™ve known this about meโ€”and gave me the grace to work through itโ€”have been loved for it in ways I cannot describe in words.

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