• If You Need to Scream, Scream

    ๐—œ๐—ณ ๐˜†๐—ผ๐˜‚ ๐—ป๐—ฒ๐—ฒ๐—ฑ ๐˜๐—ผ ๐˜€๐—ฐ๐—ฟ๐—ฒ๐—ฎ๐—บ, ๐˜€๐—ฐ๐—ฟ๐—ฒ๐—ฎ๐—บ.๐˜๐˜ง ๐˜บ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ต๐˜ฐ ๐˜ค๐˜ณ๐˜บ, ๐˜ค๐˜ณ๐˜บ.But donโ€™t disappear because someone else couldnโ€™t hold your weight.You are not unlovable.You are not too much.You are just carrying more than most people ever willโ€”and still walking. I know how that feels. Iโ€™m proud of youโ€”Honestly, Iโ€™m proud of myself too.Frankly, you and I?…

  • The Cost & The Containment

    We learned to stay quiet not because we donโ€™t feelโ€”but because no one showed us how to stay whole after speaking.This oneโ€™s about containment, and the cost of being misread.If you’ve ever wondered why a man stayed quiet when you wanted him to speak, this is sometimes why.Follow if this put words to something youโ€™ve…

  • Healing Butter

    I put the lid back on the peanut butter without thinking about it.Didnโ€™t sigh. Didnโ€™t narrate it to myself.Didnโ€™t analyze it.Did the thing and moved on.Cleaned the spoon and got on with the day. Just noticed afterwardsโ€”Huh. Iโ€™m probably okay today.

  • Don’t Find Yourself. Return.

    ๐˜ผ๐™ฉ ๐™ฉ๐™ž๐™ข๐™š๐™จโ€ฆ ๐™„’๐™ซ๐™š ๐™›๐™š๐™ก๐™ฉ ๐™ข๐™ค๐™ง๐™š ๐™ก๐™ž๐™ ๐™š ๐™– ๐™ฉ๐™ค๐™ค๐™ฃ๐™ž๐™š ๐™ž๐™ฃ ๐™ก๐™–๐™จ๐™ฉ ๐™ฌ๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™ฉ๐™š๐™ง’๐™จ ๐™ก๐™ค๐™จ๐™ฉ ๐™ก๐™š๐™›๐™ฉ ๐™จ๐™ค๐™˜๐™ . This quote means a lot to me. I have an allergy to “therapy-speak”, but thisโ€ฆ this is the real deal. She’s describing real self-work. I’ve spent the last year learning what I think, working out what I feel, unlearning what’s not…

  • Kicking Boots

    ๐™๐™๐™š๐™จ๐™š ๐™–๐™ง๐™š ๐™ข๐™ฎ ๐™ ๐™ž๐™˜๐™ ๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™œ ๐™—๐™ค๐™ค๐™ฉ๐™จ.I donโ€™t need to kick things often.But when I do, Iโ€™m glad I have these on. They remind me strength doesnโ€™t need volume.Just purposeโ€”and maybe steeltoes.

  • What Should I Know?

    I’ll answer first:๐’๐จ๐ฆ๐ž๐ญ๐ก๐ข๐ง๐  ๐ˆ ๐ฐ๐ข๐ฌ๐ก ๐ฆ๐จ๐ซ๐ž ๐ฐ๐จ๐ฆ๐ž๐ง ๐ค๐ง๐ž๐ฐ ๐š๐›๐จ๐ฎ๐ญ ๐ก๐จ๐ฐ ๐ˆ ๐ฅ๐จ๐ฏ๐ž:When I canโ€™t give a detailed emotional response right away, itโ€™s not because Iโ€™m hiding somethingโ€”Itโ€™s because it takes time for me to feel my thoughts through enough to understand what they are. After that, it takes more time to think of the right…

  • Quietly Open I Wait For You

    Sometimes I think about the possibility that you’re already out there.Not searching. Justโ€ฆ living.Going about your days with a soft ache you canโ€™t quite name.Maybe you don’t know I exist. Maybe you never will.But Iโ€™m here. Quietly. Open.If youโ€™re here too, thatโ€™s enough for now.