Holdingly Held
๐พ ๐ป๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐:
I donโt ask for reassurance oftenโ
but when it comes, it hits like a drug.
Scratch me behind the earsโ
Iโll follow you around for hours.
Iโve learned to be steadyโ
after years of stumbling.
I donโt need managingโ
but I do need respect.
I carry whatโs mineโ
some loads just took longer to stand back up under.
I sort my own wiringโ
still learning to be a brain electrician.
I’m not perfectโ
But I’ll always be evolving toward it.
Around ๐บ๐ฒ,
๐๐๐ stops reaching for the reins.
Not because ๐ take them from ๐๐๐โ
but because ๐๐๐ doesnโt need toโ
๐’๐๐ฒ earned ๐๐๐ trust.
A form of ๐๐๐ love.
โ๐๐ฆ๐ต ๐จ๐ฐ ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ญ๐ฆ๐ต ๐๐ข๐ฅ๐ฅ๐บ,โ I half-jokingly joke.
She agrees. Rolls her eyes.
Stillโฆ sometimes I need to hear it.
For her to sayโwith all of her heart:
โ๐๐๐’๐๐ ๐๐๐๐.โ
Remind me Iโm chosen,
and something shifts.
I get affectionate. Loyal.
Sometimes absurdly so.
German shepherd exterior.
Golden retriever interior.โ
I post like this sometimesโabout love, men, trust, and the kind of woman I hope exists here on our island.
If you’re the kind of woman who’d rub a man’s back until his leg thumps, you’re basically already my person.
